poems of scrawl (like credits)

poems what are having just one stanza

(though this is having not the best def. cuz there r others what have same criteria files elsewhere; so i guess there's a length component to it, but i havent decided what that would be or if there's a better way of narrating this

"Eating an ear" (Spring 2025)

It is soft
It is tender
Pinsered by teeth
Interrogated by tongue
Porous and smooth
The flesh gives way, but
Something underneath
Bite down
Feel it
The not quite connection of cartilage
Pliable yet firm
Inviting like a push door
Soothing
Skin cut by bone, tearing
Ripping inside
A warm embrace
Slovenly like a toothpick
Like tootsie pop
Like saliva patina
Crushed
Trace the ridges of the undercavern
Maw
Fat reserve
Dog food
Burnt quickly
Supple, settled
No resistance
Loose and inviting
No blood
Swallow
A salty shadow remains
The flavor of an impulse:
Top and bottom buoyed
Like magnets strangling a balloon

"Strangling" (Spring 2025)

Thumb pressed in from the outside
Feeling cardiac fingerprint
A lock without a key
The key is to lock it
Hear it click
Like bubble wrap
Like a poster tube
Grasp it
You understand?
Question
Desire
Unrest
Desire for order
Desire to know
Bone termites migrate south
By way of nervewrought thoroughfares
Sapience congested
Gasp
Sputter
Words writhe
Pain rises above air
But below pleasure
Tidal colonies shift like
Fields of grain (rooted body hair)
Speech
Stutter
Coalesce
Come together
Clench
Know it
Feel it
Shuttered blinds
Splash happily in
The first mud puddles of Spring
Interlaced memories
Remember
The penis comes again
It clicks:
A complete shut out
Bummer
I thought they'd win

"Privacy and the wind (the wound)" (Spring 2025)

Stop it.
Let me go.
Push it harder
Push it till it breaks
Warped wood square peg
In metal frame circle hole
Feel it in your neck
In the back of your head
Feel seen
Maybe
Feel life blood
Breathing
A rhythm of
To slice you open
Entrails of tissue
Eyes in the darkness
They're watching you
Sliding down
A deep hill
Into a trench
Exposed and alone
But what if you aren't
It won't fit
It doesn't shut
You press it and it stays still
For a minute
Of silence
Of forgetting
Of safety and
Solitude
Sliced open by midnight pupil
Pushed open by penumbral breeze
Bisected blackness of light
Just let me be
Just me
Echoes
Reminders
Shame
But the door won't quit
Threshold to the outside world
Organism that clenches
Circulation
Wriggle like carpet fuzz
Creaking stairs
An eye mask
An injured leg
Intestines crawl like neckties
I want to be alone
But my body won't let me be
My body that is not mine
My body that's beyond me
That swallows me
Within tonsiled ceiling
Where flaps swing open
As rotten me at abattoir
Fetid, hanging, limp, open, alone
And infested with maggots
Crawling in my head
In my eyes
In the corners of my eyes
I hear them every night
The sound of rusted hinges
And architectural nearsightedness
A place for no person
An experiment in falling apart
Turning to sludge every day
Being watched
Becoming invisible
Like leaves rattling in a dirt mound
An embrace of many, many more
Creeping shadows cut deep
Paranoia in the midnight sky
Other people live here now (too)

"Gravity haunted bones" (Spring 2025)

Pressure
Pushing
Straight and narrow
Tied up in ligamented catacombs
Electric cables
Flesh taped to the ground
Unstable
Rattling
Breaking plates
Smashed windows
A tourist in the night
Evidence of pain
Skin tight
Succumbing
Pinching
Chafing
Biting
Tearing slowly
Eating through time
Digesting
That is, acid melting down
Crayon blowtorched
Twig snapped
Hand caught in hydraulic press
The vertex hurts the most
Arthritic-like
Injured from knowledge
Scars that say, "you were here"
Cut open passageways
Loose panels
Electrical wiring
Spilling out
Tasting empty
Like yesterday
Like iron at the back of your throat
Fractured and whining
Push past it
Press it down
Cauterized trauma
Splintered intersections
Throbbing
Mewling
Clawing
Sleep it off
It wakes you up
It pulls you down
Like time-lapsed roots
Like reminders of infection
Dislodged
Limp
Limping
Secrets that whisper in winces
And stay secret
Since you haven't asked
If you look like an injury

"used 2" (Fall 2025)

I only feel awake when I whisper into wallpaper
When I jam my nose up into right angled corner
I only feel at home when I fill my head with echoes
What make me spill out empty circuits as I try to do complete
I only feel alive when I wake up from a nightmare
Where I saw eighty women die
By the actor who plays John Snow, where he's a serial abuser
And where internet campaigns stalk and harass femme celebrities
Making them live in fear of posts they'd made when just thirteen
When they were really feeling it and didn't know the whole story
Where I'm locked in a car and that man is sitting next to me
And he's reaching ever nearer and he's trying to kill me dearly
I only feel myself when I'm hardly lucid and halfway reeling
I only feel afraid when I can't quite feel my feet or
When my teeth start getting stranger and my nostrils flare obtusely
I only feel it's true when I'm caught up in the moment
When I cannot see a mirror
When I don't wanna like u
I only trust myself when I've turned into a stranger
And like a specimen in a case display, I'm a thousand miles away
A human that was a boy
A flesh that's made of insect brains
A million tries and fails
A billion sands of grain
I only want to love like I did that time the other day
Because it felt so real and visceral and I would it never went away
I only feel the heat when I put eighteen layers on and rip my pelvis open
I only wanna be someone who feels and loves and makes something that makes me be at peace

"Stranger teeth have bitten me" (Fall 2025)

A lot of salt in the earth right now
(Fat tongue drags disappointment across the roof)
Of mouth-to-mouth pores face disagreement
A not quite rough slime sucks/
/in hopes and
/like a straw
Hat + glove (plural please, if you can)
Why so many people putting poker on airs?
Fighting giant crabs~
Pen slips out in loop-de-loop
Grasping slippery sweaty nothingnesses
Can't even be angry
Just flaccid fists like Lego figs
Moc but the dust bunnies built it
Where the rats could reach it
Under the in-between counter + stove
Rotting carrot peel and potato eye
Peace sign at best
Break time at worst
But you hold it in. You always do
That shrimp dick shrinking soft-headed penis
Broken nails from walking head down
Twenty minutes each way
Five days in the cold
Cold cuz double dosed on spironolactone
Just a sinking center of piss
No foothold, all bouldering

"An incomplete poem (cuz I fell out of my face when in the midst of writing); (title pending)" (Winter 2026)

Shitty crayons from Santa
These packages of plastic
For things no one would want
Fast fashion
And desire producing machines
The image of what u did always had wanted
Made from shaky hand
Shaky as in sleep deprived
From making minimum wage
And a thousand other plushies
Fabric made from plastic threads
Seams that unthread in time
Soft seeming in the store front
Falls to slime from sweat
From soapless grubby paws
Learning mending when u can
Holding on to what u can
Holding tight
Hugging embrace
Holding those leaking ligaments
Leaking cotton or whatever's cheaper to fill within
...
Saying about gift stores
Saying about the zoo
This thing that's not home to you
That ur being held in
In tiny exhibits
In melting snow
And mud
And fenced in by netting
And chain and electrocuted wires
...
Amur tiger
Anne hatch, in memory of
Placards about the harm of big game hunters
...
Wild boars're on loan today
And the seasonal things are closed the same
Wells Fargo play pen
...
Saying about the high walk thats locked off
But the lock isnt locked
But the security camera is there
Locked off because snowfall
But the fallen snow has too fallen
(Into melting-- into being melted)
...
But the plastic is not the problem
...
Zoo trying for profit
Trying to make do
And deal with us till closing time
A date spot, to be sure
...
I dont know what I'm doing here
Shifting, it's all just getting thru
No point in sustainable
Light headed
All I see r anagrams
And eye became impediment

"sounds like 'somnambulance'" (Winter 2026)

effusive like a
noun noun noun noun
sososososososososo
seldom
nobody likes u
noun becoming a verb
hahhh hahhh hahhhh
brionac, dragon of the ice barrier
sosososososososo soporific
somebody call------
the line went dead u know
howhowhow hhhhhhhhhh
no no, not now
listen here, you said
sound, like a rodent's plan
not like 'of music'
nosferatu
he he he he
he's Dracula, don't you know
nobody
we need no body
noun becoming a verb
18 days since an owl attack
head throb
in the shower
nocturnal reminder
of a visit that never happened
too afraid to go outside
too held to eschew the grief
18
18
18
18
how the fuck does------
nobody nobody nobody
now now now
noun becoming a verb
now ur getting it
ha ha ha ha ha
like a jackal cackle
dontcha know?
nobody nobody at all
field research in the rain these days
noun becoming a verb becoming a noun
u have 2 define ur terms
no body no body at all
habeas corpus
habeas corpus
u've been dragging this for miles now
14 14 14 14
it used to be a baby
we all did
u wonder
wow wow wow
u too?
he he he he he he he
Wendy's
wwwwwwwww
Wendigonononono
noun becoming
nomadic
that means moving around
somatic
that means
noun becoming a verb becoming a noun
nobody wants to play with girls anymore
how how how how how how how
did u even read the instruction?
hah!
get a grip.
when
he went home
who?
asked?
actually hysterical
like a full moon
like a hate campaign
like an effusive ------
somber means he's too
u fucking forgot it
doing too many things at once
18 open documents, none of them saved
how will u ever learn to live this way?
Wendigo. ha. as if.
wildebeest
wild wild ......
what r u?
some fucking idiot or something?
don't u want to go home?
don't u want to sleep where ur mommy lives?
fuck u.
u fucking faggot.
get a grip and go drown urself in a lake where u belong
in Uzumaki people turn into snails
f is for foul language
...
soon
we will be there soon
u can close ur eyes now
it will all be over soon.

"just a garden variety persecution complex; what’s new with u?" (Spring 2026)

If u use that language, they will crucify u
But u want that dont u
Thats why u never learned how to speak properly
Oh, look at me, just the stuttering slobbering mess in the corner
(Why'd I leave my razor blade at home today?)
But thats lame too, no?
Just a little humiliation
Just a little blackballing
Just a little, ur never allowed to speak again
So what
Ur so dramatic
Cutting up ur larynx again
Oh wow, an arterial map of human skin
And so u live and we all die too
The people who hate u have power over u and they're not gonna let that go
N u actually thought a voluntary fast would mean anything when u cant even leave ur own home
Laughable
Scoffable
Q-tip cleaning smudge stain of [something] and sediment and, oh hey, more deaded skin while ur at it
Why'd u bother waking up today?
Yippee, another fucked out not boy with shitty coping mechanisms
Yeah, ok
I mean i guess
It's fine
It's whatever
My back's hurting a bit again so I suppose ill just go lay down and rest
And I mean, havent u got something better to do than just keep beating on me for being so beatable (even if just in o.ur mind)
[Go back where u had came or what u could say]

“hypothermic on a sunny day” (Spring 2026)

17
187
212
Leaving flowers on someone's grave
Someone u dont know
N taking pics so u can post on insta(gram)
I only read state sponsored media
And then I'm surprised everytime
Stuff doesn't happen like I thought it was supposed to
I'd do it every time if the casino owners told me to bet on black or green
Isn't it just so funny
That our president is such a silly guy
Doesn't Elon know that blacks (black people, mind you) can vote
Ever since that sink got in it's all just been downhill
I fuckin hate Taiwan, for making
My Keurig repairman charge 2x more to come and do its maintenance
Pollen season (polling season?)
Pregnant trees
Family trees
An unsigned lease
Why would I tell you he was an abuser before y'all finished going thru with getting married
Not my pain
It's not my story
Just heard it when someone told me so
Told me like the telephone tells the tea kettle it's time to get back to work
House arrest
& no fly list
Oh, and he was an abuser
That not-white, not-black cousin of yours
That's why he went off to join the army
(Just like everyone else you know)
Bed time again
Begetting

"poketch dreams during daytime with ur eyes open-ish/enough" (Spring 2026)

Birds on the horizon
Sparking like electricity
Continental gravity hangs
Over our heads
Garfield painted electric box kit
Red and blue
Marks of indigo
A league of their own
Female player character
Lacks an agency
Better off dead or alone
Said solely soft speaking
Self-echoing <><> whispers
Starting somewhere
Baking bread
Sourdough kit
From TikTok vid
Lorax line best of fit
F(x) = now we're dead
As we always have been
As we're always to be
Magnetic moonbeam
Mocks man's amassed,mountained magnesium
Micle seed
A hedgefund cure
Tracking legendary birds
On citrus chart
Plug in trainer id
To see where munchlax spawns
Real streamer luck
Is clipped for mass
Disseminatory convenience
Save u the caustic task of scrolling through
A challenge or a chatter moon
I hope some trees could never die
Said the tree feller feeling rlly bad
Paul Bunyan left his footsteps, see
That way fema aid'd need not apply
Subversive power of purchasing things; somebody in the 80s
hahahahahahahaahahahhahaahah

(mood swings eating me up again, and kinda u too)

"morse code matters much less when ur m m m r" (Spring 2026)

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i know how i'm gonna do it now.

i don't know how to read [maps] any more...

i don't know if i'll ever get home again :(

(catastrophizing kills u)

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getting so scared and sad looking at all the things i don't remember writing, that don't sound like me or seem like me. why do they all have my digital footprint. how do i make my face look right.

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No love deep web or what the fuck u want from me?

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18 (infinite sadness)

h8&despondence

nobody eats here anymore

heaven among the frisbees

nearly trans-historical

in any case, orbital

going to the glue factory

not any of ur fucking business.

(why did i say that to her....)

17 now. i wonder if i can go to bed :

"extraction mechanism. (ceaseless drool and a ruptured intestine)" (Spring 2026)

turn 2 recording cuz I'm so volatile in my body that I meet the world with
stigmata
it is being related
twitching and moving
after the crawl on the beam
i'm stimming @ you!
several people live in this house
-sorry if quality varies in accordance (of video/writing)
fascists in my dms &<yuck.>
-deleuze
(and his images)
close my eyes and seize it
-when and how i speak
dont get me wrong
just really scared
ur not 1
your is plural already
encourage us 2 think about what unexpected live component
-wockhardt 4 everyone
m * ok * iu
NO. you cant have sex with me.
activate 1,2,3,5,6,7
           5,6,7
           5,6,7
what do you spend money on?
umbrella burglar
scattered readings everywhere but what did you understand abt it?
gone home or what?
a cat in can
you win so many others will
  lose
s[a]guaro--
  assent
hunger like a q-tip...
stuttering
  -this is from terayam[a] shuji @ throw away your books
something far below
sounds like ... going home >_&<
  = sounds like somnambulance
archive of an archive
nenenedesyo
so like a heron
  i want to be a dog house
so much food around
genesis...ne-->ruru
last one- this is the last one ...
i lean in or ...?
poser&
  neg
  at
  ivity
&&
Yeah[?]
i was ahead for a bit and now i'm behind (it's how it goes)
  -required resignation
what do you want from life
trapped
I <3 Chinese Ulysses
  -hearing someone narrated their story
  [?]
9,002,374
it does not comport backwards
u can use my body
rdxn of...
poem:my fire 8 @ face of place i was born
yes but i was 2 scared
  and so i choked myself to bed
crustacean echidna
  cerulean
  conclave in a crystal cave
  conundrum
  cockney
space
  age
  new
  new
  new
sound and ocean
capital of the west
16
16
(no one took the bait)
shift away
allergy burning me up inside--
if we stay limited, we're not gonna be thinking forward in time
hypnotism is/as the void
that ability is on cooldown
can you see me?
brush my teeth!
1 2 3
why does  this matter?
you can't make me
best 2 ever do it
magic eye graphic
loose i.g. & thirstiest
  I've ever been
reeling
  reeling
  reeling
  reeling
  reeling
  reeling
  reeling
I'm so slippy can't you see my two hands writing this?
roots rotting
  reaching
  R!R!R!
odunoohayou
well
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"Teaser Trailer Industry (is another script that feeds; an ARG)" (Spring 2026)

Thank you for 10k.
I never thought itd be this way
The day what come
The day what came
(B-roll footage fuels misconception in the comment feed)
The interest came first
Then the money poured in
And the interests came clean:
I don't do this for the money but
Im starting a patreon
Hollywood doesn't know
They dont get you like we do
Like drip feed
Like IV
Like what's her name at Twin Peaks Season 1(✓)/3(?)
(Ronette Pulaski; an im.migrant type name)
Government gave money
Elicit in the individual
(Its how its called, a ritual)
>There's a plan thats perfect and a plan thats real
~~The movie is a mischaracterization of how empire works~~
U wont know till it comes out, silly
That's how punchlines work, colon-p